When Love Changes

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Niet dramatisch, niet therapeutisch, maar still, honest, lived.

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When Love Quietly Changes

We talk easily about love — about falling in, connecting, building something together.
We share the beautiful moments, the highlights, the images that say we’re happy.

What we speak about far less
is what happens when love slowly changes.
Not all at once.
But in small, almost invisible ways.

A look that drifts.
A conversation that no longer comes up.
A touch that doesn’t land anymore.

And the moment you realize
that something you once lived inside
is no longer there.

The end of a relationship rarely feels clear or clean.
It doesn’t arrive as a decision on paper.
It’s felt much deeper —
as a quiet shock in the body.

You don’t just lose a partner.
You lose a shared rhythm.
A version of yourself that existed with someone else.
A sense of home that lived between you.

Sometimes there are children within that story.
Children who sense everything.
Who read your nervous system before you find the words.
Who feel the shift in the room
and silently wonder if things will be okay.

That makes everything more tender.
And more real.

We often think we need to stay strong for them.
But what they actually need
is presence.

Not perfection.
Not pretending.
But the honesty of someone who stays.

Who feels what is there,
without disappearing into it.
Who shows that love doesn’t vanish when a relationship ends —
it simply changes shape.

And this is something no fairy tale teaches.
It’s learned through living.

Grief is not only about losing another person.
Often it’s about letting go of who you were in that love.
The future you carried quietly in your body.
The routines that once felt natural.
The idea of togetherness you held onto,
even as it slowly loosened its grip.

And sometimes, there’s grief for something else too —
the love that never fully had the space to unfold.
The version of love you thought might come later,
when life slowed down,
when there would be room.

That moment didn’t come.
And something remains unfinished.

There is a particular kind of sadness in that.
Soft, heavy, and often without words.

After an ending, life continues on the outside.
The same kitchen.
The same mug.
The same days.

You work.
You move.
You care for your children.
You do what needs to be done.

And still, something inside is finding its way.

You can function
and feel deeply disoriented at the same time.

What we’re rarely taught
is how to live with love that changes form.
How to stay with it
without holding on
and without pushing it away.

The truth is, love doesn’t leave the body.
It becomes sensation.
Breath.
Memory.
A quiet tightness somewhere in the chest.
A wave that rises without warning.

And in that space, you meet yourself again.
Not as someone who failed —
but as someone who felt deeply.
Who opened.
Who dared.

That can break something open.

Grief isn’t the absence of love.
It’s what love sounds like when it echoes.

There’s no need to rush through it.
No need to be strong.
No need to figure it out.

All that’s asked of you
is to stay present.
To keep breathing.
Gently.

Not as work.
As presence.

Especially when there are children watching.
They don’t learn from explanations.
They learn from how you live.
How you pause.
How you return to yourself.
How you keep choosing honesty over numbing.

One day, you may notice something shift.
Not that everything is fine —
but that it’s possible to be here again.

You wake up with a little more space.
A little more curiosity.
A sense that life can be met again,
slowly.

This is not despite the ending.
It’s because you stayed present with it.

It may not be the love you imagined.
But it is a quieter, truer love —
for life itself.
For your children.
For yourself.
For the truth that love doesn’t disappear.

It changes.

And sometimes, that’s enough